Thank you, but no.
I will no longer read your letters
nor will I listen to your voice.
Goodbye has been said.
Overflowing are my head and heart
of the words you’ve spoken that pierced them both.
So long, too long, I listened and heard
the rantings and manipulation you spewed forth
lectures really–of your ideas and defenses.
Too long, so long, you tried to convince me
that I was wrong and mistaken in my thinking.
Words were twisted and used against me.
Trust and faith were tools of your trade,
but they were mine that you took and
carelessly mishandled.
Delicate and sacred, I gifted them to you,
but they were not valued nor kept secure.
I hadn’t noticed when our passion ignited
that you were unbalanced and suffering then.
I looked ouside and didn’t see clearly,
instead of noticing my reality within.
Young lust had won out.
I had to learn,
a lesson of self worth;
it sure was hard won.
But now I can say,
Thank you, but no.
My entry to dVerse Poets, Open Link Night: http://dversepoets.com/2011/08/30/openlinknight-week-7/#comments
Pat Hatt
/ August 30, 2011Sometimes that is all that needs to be said, thank you but no and on you go…well said!
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Bodhirose
/ August 31, 2011That’s right. Thanks so much, Pat.
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Jamie Dedes
/ September 2, 2011Ditto that, Pat.
Love this, Gayle.
🙂
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Bodhirose
/ September 4, 2011Then I wonder why I still feel the need to “blabber” about this! Not sure…
Thanks, Jamie.
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jannie funster
/ August 30, 2011GOOD for you!!
Saying no and moving on are such gifts to us.
Wait, was this fiction?
Either way, great message and well told.
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Bodhirose
/ August 31, 2011Yes, good for me! This was true for me. I’m glad you enjoyed–thank you.
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brian
/ August 30, 2011dang, way to break it off…would love to hear this one read…can feel the finality of it…unable to put up with one more letter or gesture…great flow…
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Bodhirose
/ August 31, 2011The only way–with total finality. Whew–what a relief. Thank you, Brian.
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safehousepoetry
/ August 30, 2011“I hadn’t noticed when our passion ignited
that you were unbalanced and suffering then.” … I love this! : )
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Bodhirose
/ August 31, 2011Oooo, yeah–if only I had noticed–lesson’s to learn though!
Thank you for your kind comment. 🙂
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Sharp Little Pencil
/ August 30, 2011This is so SO my first marriage! Someone else’s I spoke with today as well, and it’s odd how we allow ourselves to be manipulated until we wake up and realize the scales have tipped so ridiculously that we’re sliding off the plate… and then starts the real battle… not making the exact same mistake again! Lovely, and sad, Gayle. Love, Amy
http://sharplittlepencil.wordpress.com/2011/08/30/third-eye-of-the-sightless-woman-dverse/
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Bodhirose
/ August 31, 2011So true–the scales had to go to ridiculous tipping! I couldn’t wake up–I was too groggy! 🙂
Thanks, Amy.
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Tamasin McGregor
/ August 31, 2011Thank you…yes, yes,yes, this is perfect!
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Bodhirose
/ August 31, 2011Hi Tamasin–so happy to see you and thanks for your great comment!
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Inside the Mind of Isadora
/ August 31, 2011An exceptional description of a destructive situation.
So deep and insightful … well done, Gayle, as always,
Hugs, Izzy xoxoxo
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Bodhirose
/ August 31, 2011Thanks so much, Izzy. I’m grateful I gleaned some insight from the whole thing.
Hugs,
Gayle xoxo
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liv2write2day
/ August 31, 2011This feels like a little piece of deja vu to me, Gayle.
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Bodhirose
/ August 31, 2011Yes–you’re right.
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Kellie Elmore
/ August 31, 2011“rust and faith were tools of your trade but they were mine that you took and carelessly mishandled.”
Man oh man have I been diwn this road! Amazing execution of this painful emotion…execution in many forms because you killed it! Brilliant! Love it!
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Bodhirose
/ August 31, 2011I think too many of us have been down this road…
I really appreciate you loving this, Kellie–thank you!
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Anna Montgomery
/ August 31, 2011Trust and faith were tools of your trade,
but they were mine that you took and
carelessly mishandled.
Delicate and sacred, I gifted them to you,
but they were not valued nor kept secure.
I’m sorry to hear this is real but glad that you ended it.
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Bodhirose
/ August 31, 2011Thanks, Anna.
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Sheila Moore
/ August 31, 2011a great but difficult boundary to set for me at times. glad you were able to here.
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Bodhirose
/ August 31, 2011True–it can be difficult to set boundaries but essential to our self-worth.
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ayala
/ August 31, 2011Good for you….hard to go through but you will come out better for having through it … No one will be able to do it again!
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Bodhirose
/ August 31, 2011I think you’re right!
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Helena White
/ August 31, 2011Oh my! ~ been there also ~ No means No! Glad to hear that you have broken free ~ It took me over thirteen years to say, thank you but no ~
♥ ஆ ~.^
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Bodhirose
/ September 1, 2011It took me longer than that–but the point is we both did it! Thanks for sharing, Helena. 🙂
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contemplativemoorings
/ September 1, 2011Learning to value one’s self…sometimes so hard to do…
Well captured 🙂
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Bodhirose
/ September 1, 2011It sure is–it can be a lifelong struggle. Thanks for sharing your thoughts with me and for your compliment. 🙂
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lesliepaints
/ September 2, 2011Excellent, Gayle! Clapping for this one. I really like the ending. “Thank you, but no.” Perfect.
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Bodhirose
/ September 2, 2011So happy for the clapping, Leslie–thank you!
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S Basu
/ September 3, 2011once you know that your trust is being used to manipulate you you are liberated. the pain is immense but the freedom is well earned.
i am happy that you blew away that veil from your eyes and started to live again.
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Bodhirose
/ September 4, 2011Wise words here, Sharmishtha ji.
I’m happy that veil was blown away too.
Love,
Gayle
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S Basu
/ September 4, 2011initially it hurts like hell but finally we learn that its a blessing. i always prefer truth, even if its harsh, undigestable.
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Bodhirose
/ September 4, 2011So true–it initially does hurt like hell but I feel the same way you do. I would rather feel the pain of truth and face it for what it is.
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S Basu
/ September 5, 2011truth is always easier to cope with.
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Bodhirose
/ September 6, 2011I think eventually we’ll have to face it so (for me) it’s better to face it sooner than later.
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