Once Mine

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Heady days of young
maturity and the
excitement of discovery.
Feelings and emotions
stirred me at every turn.
 
Hormones coursed
without constraint,
love, lust co-mingled
indistinguishable.
 
Not yet consumed
with full adult worries,
no self-created
inhibitions kept me
from adventures.
 
When did it change?
At what exact time
did those days
become these?
 
Days of youth
became days of old.
 
Gone, but for a memory,
but what use is that?
No longer now,
it lives in the past.
 
And when I muse on
that exhilarating time,
I sometimes miss
what was once mine.

Stuart McPherson invites us to write on what we are missing:  http://dversepoets.com/2012/12/01/poetics-missing-you/#comment-25349

Sleep’s Peace

The peace of sleep has now been erased

The searing pain strikes deep again

Grief of my loss comes sweeping through

Tears start to fall from eyes so blue

It’s real–it’s true, my love is gone

He made a choice to keep moving on

My first real love, I was so attached

But I’ve let him go–no turning back

The pain is with me like a gloomy cloud

Lightning bolts flash hitting hard

No joy within, no smile without

My heart’s been broken, crushed and slaughtered

I see no ending to this overwhelming carnage

I have no appetite

I can’t eat a bite

I blame myself

Somehow I was lacking

My days feel endless

I wander like a droid

No concentration

My brain’s gone numb

The only respite is when I sleep.

Sleep

Sleep

Day

After

Day

Until finally a glimmer of light I see

Sadness… An Announcement

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Image by izik via Flickr

I feel sadness today as I must let you all know that yesterday my daughter  suffered a miscarriage.  Her doctor was lovingly supportive of her as he told her that it is a common occurrence and for her not to worry that she won’t be able to carry a pregnancy to term in the future.  Even though our family is encouraged by his words, we are saddened that she and her husband have to go through this feeling of loss.

I appreciated the happiness that was shared with me as I looked forward to being a grandmother and I still have the hope that that will be the case someday–when the time comes.

Love,

Gayle

 

 

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