It’s Over

In those early, giddy days, our relationship was exciting, colorful and sparkling, to say the least. But it felt inevitable to me that it would end.  It seems when a relationship starts off with such deep infatuation and feelings of fancy that it simply doesn’t last through the long haul.  The hints and suggestions were [...]

Childhood’s Grief

Why is it that the memories I hold are the ones of distress and feeling so low– my childhood seems so dark and bleakly cold. I remember feeling a heightened dread of the people I looked to for protection and love. They were menacing and devoid of the nurturing I craved and didn’t notice their [...]

Mom’s Emergency

It began with a phone call between 12:30 and 1PM Sunday afternoon.  It was my mother.  Her voice had that familiar tension in it when she’s feeling anxious.  “Gayle, something’s happening to me.  When I woke up this morning, I felt very groggy, like I was drugged and I lost my balance when standing up [...]

I’m Angry

I’m feeling angry and my heartbeat is racing. My blood is heated and my ego is squirming. I’m frustrated and mad and feeling so sad that I’ve fallen into this behavior again. I can’t seem to break this habit of mine that keeps me locked tight and feeling unkind. The words that heatedly cut, come [...]