Oh had I been born without
this contrast that settles
deeply about my head
and shoulders. The same
leadenness that weights
my feet with each step.
I see there is light, for
it glows brightly at times…
for periods here and there.
My heart feels it and gives
a tiny leap of recognition.
Yes, the soul lifts and
begins a whirling of its
energy and a surge of
joy emerges from the dark,
lighting my path.
But would I have become
who I am if not for
the experience of darkness?
Knowing what I know
of the shadow self?
I think not.
Even though…I’m left with a
lingering malaise of
the memories of the pain
inflicted, dealt with,
held onto, lived through and
died through, by lifetimes built.
A blunted gloom lurks just below
the surface…just right there,
waiting for any opening to
show itself and disperse
that light…as if a candle
flame being extinguished,
Karin Gustafson hosts today at dVerse Poets and asks us to reflect on “bright shadows” however that may show up for you: http://dversepoets.com/2013/02/02/the-poetics-of-groundhog-day-bright-shadow/
Posted by Bodhirose on February 2, 2013
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I’m living between two worlds:
In one I’m conscious and aware,
in the other I’m struggling in a dream.
I see the purity and love in my heart.
I perceive my flaws and faults in extreme.
I can mindfully follow my breath in and out.
I breathe in staccato from the anger I shout.
I can serve others through selfless actions.
I fail to control my own selfish emotions.
I’ve had glimpses of illumination bringing about joy and bliss,
only to find me the next day floundering around in my grief.
I’ve lived with intention and have known my soul’s freedom–
only to be swirled around again in a tidal pool of thoughts.
On the outside I can appear to be a very calm human being;
but inside I can be erupting into a million little pieces.
But I’m watching and practicing to see this and accept
that I’m like everyone else–we’re all just trying our best.
I’m learning to let go of the patterns that don’t serve
and live in the spirit of the lightness of just being.
Is this life a true duality or is it only our thoughts that give us this feeling?
Posted by Bodhirose on January 8, 2011