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I’m feeling angry and
my heartbeat is racing.
My blood is heated
and my ego is squirming.
I’m frustrated and mad
and feeling so sad
that I’ve fallen into
this behavior again.
I can’t seem to break
this habit of mine
that keeps me locked
tight and feeling unkind.
The words that heatedly cut,
come spewing forth. And the
look on the face staring
back at me shows a
soul that’s in pain from
the discord he heard.
But even as I write that
I know it’s not true–our
souls are untainted and free;
it’s our egos that create
the sorrow we accrue
and bring us this karmic state.
It doesn’t mean that I’m
off the hook, as our egos
play tit-for-tat, but I want
to learn to be calm and steady
no matter the trying condition.
Open Link Night at dVerse Poets: http://dversepoets.com/2012/02/28/open-link-night-week-33/
Kerry O'Connor
/ December 31, 2010…And there will be days like this….
Great emotive write which taps into the dark places we all try to keep well hidden.
Skylover
Bodhirose
/ December 31, 2010Yes, there sure will be. Thanks for your visit and support here, Kerry, I appreciate it.
Gayle ~
Olivia
/ December 31, 2010Gayle, hoping the very Best for you. I do not know what is testing your time but am sure that this will pass too.. It’s easier said than done.. Wishing you all the very best My Dear..
Loads of Love and warm Hugs
xox
Bodhirose
/ December 31, 2010Thanks for coming by Olivia and for your sweet words. They really do help.
Love and peace for you…
Michael Yost
/ December 31, 2010When I witness karma I feel the balancing when it’s someone else’s experience. When it’s my own experience I feel a thumb was on the scale.
Bodhirose
/ December 31, 2010I’m experiencing what is known as “instant karma”. The words said in anger hurt me as well as the person in my line of fire. It is as it should be–but ouch that hurt!
Tamasin
/ December 31, 2010love this Gayle, thanks
Bodhirose
/ December 31, 2010Thanks so much, Tamasin. xoxo
liv2write2day
/ December 31, 2010I have to confess…anger is my least favorite emotion. So of course I chose it as the subject of my thesis. But I sure havent “mastered” it. :0) Writing it out helps a lot and taking that energy and converting it into a creative force? Wow!
Bodhirose
/ December 31, 2010It’s mine too. Scary. You were brave to delve right in and use it as the subject of your thesis. I started writing this just as I was feeling it and it did help to diffuse the emotion–and I got a poem out of it. Thanks for sharing with me.
zongrik
/ February 29, 2012is anger anyone’s favorite emotion…ok…don’t answer, don’t want to meet that person
cliffhanger
Bodhirose
/ February 29, 2012I can’t imagine that anyone would favor anger…but it sure seems like it sometimes. Some people really seem to get off on being angry…not me. Don’t want to meet that person either.
annell Livingston
/ December 31, 2010Passionate lady indeed! I liked it very much!
Bodhirose
/ December 31, 2010Thanks so much for your visit and comment, Annell. I really appreciate it.
Happy New Year to you!
gracefulglider
/ December 31, 2010reality check right there.
May whatever inspired this piece keep positive energy flowing.
Love and Light Gayle!!!
you’ll be missed in 2010 :)
xxx
Bodhirose
/ December 31, 2010I just let it out in this poem last night–it did help. Thanks for commenting on this topic that’s not always easy for people to face.
May peace and love be yours in the coming year. And you’ll be missed too but I’ll see you in 2011! xoxo
trisha
/ December 31, 2010i could see myself in your poem Gayle. Very beautifully expressed.
Bodhirose
/ December 31, 2010Oh, I’m glad you could see yourself, Trisha. I needed some company. Thanks so much.
trisha
/ January 1, 2011i think every thing has its reason, if we earnestly try to conquer a weakness sooner or later it gives in. but we have to keep trying sincerely. i hope i too will be able to tame this some day,
Bodhirose
/ January 1, 2011Yes, things don’t change overnight. I’m plugging along hoping to get my temper under control when I’m pushed to the limit.
Maybe we both will do better in the coming New Year! :)
trisha
/ December 31, 2010wish you a marvelous 2011 my sweet precious friend. Wonderful years may follow it to fill up your life with perfect happiness and beauty.
Bodhirose
/ December 31, 2010Thank you from the bottom of my heart dear friend.
May your creativity continue to flow and entertain and enlighten all of us who read your wonderful writings.
May you have all the goodness that the universe has to offer–you are so deserving.
May you feel peace.
May you feel loved.
Love,
Gayle
trisha
/ January 2, 2011Wish you the same and lot more my sweet, loving friend.
Bodhirose
/ January 2, 2011You are so kind–thanks so much. :)
trisha
/ January 5, 2011not half as much as you are :)
Giovanni Cucullo
/ December 31, 2010Writing can be so therapeutic!
The quote by Pierro Ferrucci on my home page seems quite fitting.
I wish you Love, Health and Happiness for the New Year!
Gio
Bodhirose
/ December 31, 2010I agree–it sure can! Thanks for coming by and commenting–now let me go see what that quote is…
I’m grateful for your lovely new year’s greeting as well. May all good be yours in the coming year!
Gayle xoxo
Jamie Dedes, all rights reserved
/ January 3, 2011Gayle, you speak for all of us. It’s tough living up to our ideals sometimes. Other times, I think we surprise ourselves.
Thanks for being human and for bothering to struggle. Thanks for letting us all know we’re not in it alone.
Bodhirose
/ January 3, 2011Thanks, Jamie. Yes, it’s tough at times but I sure don’t want to be in denial and pretend that I don’t have these emotions when I do. I like those times too when I get surprised and I “rise up” to the occasion so to speak.
No, we’re sure not alone. Thanks for your support.
jgavinallan
/ May 8, 2011Gayle:
This is “your” poem. It seems to be the forerunner—or maybe the culmination of the others.
You feel the anger and also your desire to control yourself. I sense guilt and self-doubt about the situation. You really paint an emotional picture. I see your soul ripping apart over what is happening. You even show an understanding of his pain—even if he is the cause.
We have all been through it. My words does not make it easier. But at least—you are not alone
love from a friend
Jaye
xoxo+an extra pair xo
Bodhirose
/ May 8, 2011You are very astute, Jaye! Yes, I let the anger fly sometimes but then can (sometimes) chastise myself for losing control. Oh well–that’s the way it goes! I am learning to accept what IS about myself and others. HARD to do! And I sure don’t want to wallow in guilt and self-doubt either.
I wrote this minutes after I had a blowup with my boyfriend and it just came out of me like the anger did. I like it–it helped me. :)
Yes, we’ve all been through it–thanks for your words–I really appreciate them. You are a wonderful friend.
Your fan,
Gayle xoxo
jgavinallan
/ May 8, 2011thanks—talking to my friend–she is on cloud 9—she has an agent
“your fan” very sweet thing to say.
But! I was your fan first–lol
love Jaye
xoxoxo
brian miller
/ February 28, 2012well i am glad the date is old on this…but i hear you…and it is our ego you know…and still i think we can find our way through it…i traveled this road a bit after losing my job a few years back….
Bodhirose
/ February 29, 2012I agree…if we want to work through it, we can… Unemployment (me too) can really take its toll on our patience…